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  • Current Residence: Tumwater Wa
  • Interests: I like to read, watch movies, cook
  • Favourite movie: Sense and Sensibility
  • Favourite band or musician: Pearl Jam, No doubt, Fiona Apple
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternative
  • Favourite artist: Monet
  • Favourite poet or writer: V.C. Andrews
  • Favourite game: Joust
  • Favourite cartoon character: the smurfs or gummi bears, scooby doo
  • Personal Quote: life is the strangest journey you will ever know
  • Tools of the Trade: one demented way of thinking =)

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Have a Happy Holidays and a WONDERFUL New Year

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From us at Wishingyouagreatholidays Inc.

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But then again I am only 17. What do I know?

Today, there was a spider on the wall of the bathroom stall I was in. So I said "Bitch! Im using this stall!" then I kicked it's ass.

If I was Mr. T...I'd kick your ass...then rape you.
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Merry Christmas Tammy!
I hope 2005 brings you happiness, good times and plenty of smiles!


At Christmas play and make good cheer,
For Christmas comes but once a year.

- Thomas Tusser

From Emily :hug:

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a nifty Moderator of ~ PoetsoftheNight
******don’t let the words bite ******
:iconmissarey:
i am so in awe.
that is amazing.. i hear about people falling fr their best friends all the time and it working out and everything being so lovely, but usually, thats in movies and stuff. this is truth. yeh, so it did end, but fo eight years, thats amazing. i wish mine would just like me for one night... no wait. that would break me too.
two children... youre so lucky :) maybe that was painful for a while? but then i guess your love for them would override all of that. in never want to date any of the guys i have ever properly liked, probably because im afraid of commitments and expectations, but i think losing them came into it alot too. the breaking up and leaving part must have been just plain awful. there goes your best friend and sweetheart, all in one. and knowing it was for real.
moving on, as far as i know is the hardest and best thing to do. i think thats wicked that you found someone else that loves you as much as you love him. moving on doesnt mean letting go though, and even though i no longer am in like/love/lust with any guy from my past, i never ever want to forget them and the small bit of perfect we had. i wish now that i had the guts to properly say "i love you" when i meant it, not now after everything is over.
a new friend of mine said she knew a boy who reminded her of me so totally and completely, she insisted that i was the female version of him. now, after knowing him for so long, i know we arent the exact same, but i still think that we were meant to know eachother and love eachother, in any way. i wouldnt take our first relationship back, i wouldnt take the break up back, i wouldnt take the silence that followed the break up back. all this stuff, i needed if i was going to be his friend today. he knocked me over and built me back up.
i kinda like my best friends girlfriend as well. she is nice and i dont feel threatened by her at all. i find that odd too :)
i used to hate sappy poems about love lost, but now its all i can write, so now i search this whole site for them so i can find someone who understands my circumstance.
thankyou again, for your poems and comments.
today was better than most.

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all I do is kiss you, through the bars of a rhyme.
:iconluxyletson:
It was a pleasure to tell you about my story. Maybe us telling these stories will release some of that pain. I still look to my ex. but he is not there for me, he has another life now. And that is the hardest thing in the world. I will never have that friend back, we are just now barely starting to talk. It's so usual now, almost like he is a stranger. I still write poetry about him, even though I really love my husband. He was my muse I guess. He inspired me to look into myself, and love myself and that is something I never did in my life before. My husband, is now in Iraq, he is in the Army. I find myself going through so much right now. It's hard to know what to make of things. The scars we have within us, will always be. For me the pain is a real as yesterday. Its a tormenting feeling like you never want to be that loved again cause you know of the pain, you have felt from giving all of yourself. But at the same time, if you never love again, you will never let yourself heal. If you never trust anyone, which is a hard thing for me to do. You will never set yourself free. I need to do that, it's what my husband deserves, and no less.
Thanks for that poem its really left me thinking about my life, and that is a good thing.
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thats amazing that your husband is in the army. i think you are so strong to let him do that. i dont think i would be able to.. i am so damn dependent on others.
gosh everything you say is the absolute truth! thats beautiful, bt it is awful the pain you had to go through to learn it. i hope my friend will always be with me somehow, i cant stand the fact of having to leave school and go our seperate ways. i never want to lose what i have right now. i hope that one day you and him will grow closer and become the friends you were in the beginning. all the qualities and common interests are still there, it was only one thing that tore you apart. thats the hardest thing, trying to pick up the pieces.
i'm sure you had that "i hate to love you" stage? well, im semi in that. some days i do, but most days i dont. it bothers me when he doesnt call me, or when he talks about other girls, but when im on the phone to him, its all okay. i think i'm pretty pathetic that way =P i trust him with everything, but thats because he hasnt broken my heart. the second i meet someone they have my instant trust, they cant gain any more, but they can sure as hell lose it. gaaah... aint life a bitch?

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all I do is kiss you, through the bars of a rhyme.
:iconmissy-star:
Hello poet buddy! :giggle:

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******don’t let the words bite ******
:iconluxyletson:
hiya thanks for the comments i really appreciate it=)
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